ok.. back to blogging..
actually i didnt want to..
just because i got class @ 9
and its 430 now.. FML

nevertheless.. after sch ends going with
my one and only for G.I. Joe.
hopefully its nt a decision i will regret..
i am broke.. again.. always..
haha..
im left with about $95 for 3 weeks..
can go kill myself already..
but lucky next 2 weeks is exam..
so i should just force myself to stay @ home and study..


i just realised about my family history from my mum..
perhaps some dramas do depict real life stories.
i always thought my mum divorced my dad due to his gambling habits..
in fact there were debts that my mother had to pay for him..
a useless father.
a guy who left my mum and 3 children behind..
a guy who left a huge debt for my mother to pay off..
a guy that didnt wan access to his own children.
a guy whose face is so vague i cant even picture it in my head.
a guy nt fit to be with my mother.
a guy nt fit to be my father.

-has never been
-never will be

i never probed into this problem before.
i even wanted to look for him ONE DAY..
and acknowledge him one day if he happen to be rich..
even if i could have all the money in the world.
no way. better hope i dun see the guy when im in emerg. dept.


now im determined to give my mum allowance no matter wat..
she has worked hard enough.
teared when she told me the worst 3 weeks
she ever lived in her life
eating crackers and drinking tap water.
mark my words.





its not going to happen again.